salihamidzic

Pikiran!!

1) tentang ibu yg harus membuat segala nya
dari dalam sampai dapur, dan sebaliknya..
2) kaki ku yang masih sakit; nggak bisa berjalan, letih! menunggu
3) gambaran & bunyian semasa kemalangan; seolah sebuah video yang telah dirakam & dipicit butang "playback" untuk ke sekian kali bila mata ini tertutup
4) sedih memikirkan ibu membuat segalanya; kenapa nggak bisa aku patah tangan? bisa aku berjalan!
5) kenapa aku tak "curl-up" seperti bola semasa kemalangan? bukankah itu yang patut aku lakukan?

Kecelakaan yang menimpa diriku ini bisa membuat aku kurang siuman.. ya Allah, aku dah tak sanggup lagi! sembuhkanlah hamba mu ini ya Allah!

Pikiran!

mampukah aku nanti menunaikan solat seperti biasa? bukan duduk di bangku.. apakah besi di dalam kakiku akan membuat aku kekok?!

"Org cakap kecelakaan bermakna allah ampunkan dosa kita"
*Berat sungguh dosa ku barangkali ya*

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sampai skrng aku rase takut nak tido mlm.. flashbacks of de accident
is giving me de nightmares..
no matter how i tried
making myself tired during de day..
trying not to nap in de afternoon..

haiz..

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dear nana aka BFF,

heard bout ur accident..
read it on ur FB status
9 minutes after you post it..

glad ur fiance n urself are allright..
that's all that matters..
after what happened to me..
few weeks back

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i almost fell earlier on in de lavatory..
while washing myself up before i call it a day..
the feeling..?
woah!

Scary Mary On The Rocks

if i'd had fall..
it'll be my injured knee first on the ground..
omg!!

shall not think further..

felt like all the icing on the leg gone to waste..
coz my leg is in pain now..

FML!

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it has been raining cats n dogs
since the wee morning hrs..
and it has yet to stop..
pls stop soon..

i woke up too early coz of U
n
my leg is feeling so cold..
the metal plate n de screws has spoken
dear rain..
pls stop soon..

pity me..

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today went well!
came on the dot..
soon after got called..
den de dressing part!

jeng jeng jeng...

again..
the hole was de main event!
or rather aim/target..

washed de wound.. clear wadeva is inside..
den use de swabstick!
the thing i fear the most..
use it to poke the hole..
aiyoyo...
PAIN la dey..
injection needle gave it a More tingling sensation..
my whole leg juz went numb..

given a choice..
i dun wan the nurse to see the hole..
let the hole heal very very soon so tat i can be saved frm going thru the pain..

*sighs*

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pple shud really stop asking me
"How r u feeling?"
seriously..
i'd like to reply
"you're walking n im not!"

will my reply surprise u..?
i hope not coz tats de truth..
so stop asking if u dunno wad im going thru right now..
its damn obvious im NOT okay..!

*pissed*

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i was mostly tossing n turning de whole of last night..
i cant seem to get into a comfortable position to sleep..
n i cant stay too long at one's position..
haiz..

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im crying as i'm doing my routine leg exercise..
Ya Allah!
ujian yg kau berikan ku ni tak terperi berat nya..
my leg is back to being swollen again..
Y?! Y?! Y?!

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